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Saturday, December 8, 2012

The World Can't End! At Least Not Yet!

The Mayans Can't Be Right!


Well, because there are just too many things I'm looking forward to.
ALL of which fall after December 21, 2012.
So, they can't be right.  No. Nope. Nada.

There is a lot of talk about eschatology right now.  And I'm okay with the study of end time prophecy. In fact,  our lady's bible study group is currently doing the Beth Moore study on the book of Daniel.

If you haven't done this study, and you get the chance,
DO IT.  I'm not going to go into it, because once I get started I can't stop!  It's all MIND BLOWING and EPIC stuff!

One word: WHOA
Just WHOA!

I love our lady's group and must say this study is the best I've done with them so far.  I look forward to each lesson so much.  Sunday nights cannot get here fast enough to suit me.  This is a very timely study right now too.

And that brings me back around to why I'm not okay with things ending in December this year. 
There are a lot of WHOA things happening in the coming months, and I'm very excited about them!

So, I thought it might be fun to post about a few of the reasons I'm not ready for the end!

Naturally, they involve a few of my favorite things:  Books. Music. Movies.

I'm listing these in this order because I believe in LADIES FIRST!


                          Coming February 5 2013

Iscariot, a novel of Judas

Judas... what have we missed?
Is it possible that 2000 years of tradition have gotten it all wrong?
Would you have done the same? 

If you haven't read Tosca Lee, all I can say is what are you waiting for! You are missing out! I dove into her story "Demon, A Memoir" and found myself mesmerized by the world she creates... the story she tells!  Her writing is thought-provoking, eloquent, beautiful, intense, powerful, and passionate.  I closed that book not realizing how moved I was until I let out the breath I'd been holding.  It was a story I only thought I knew.  It is a book you will never forget.  You can read my review of it here: GoodReads

Tosca Lee also wrote "Havah, The Story Of Eve".  I can't even dive into all my thoughts on that one at this time. I do need to write a review, a glorious, raving review, but time is short tonight and once started... well we all know I have trouble stopping.  

I had that problem with both Demon and Havah.  I didn't want to put them down.  I had to finish them and once I had I was sad the magic had ended.  I'm looking very forward to reading Iscariot!

Tosca Lee also co-writes The Books Of Mortals Series with Ted Dekker. "Mortal" and "Forbidden" are available now, so be sure you check them out too!

Tosca is an amazing writer and a really cool person with amazing tastes in shoes.  Yes, yes.  I got to meet her, my copy of Demon is signed, and I've had the immense privilege of talking to her via Facebook now and then.  She really lets her fans be a part of her world.  I love that.  I'm a total fan-girl about the whole thing.

I met Tosca during one of the most amazing weekends of my life.  I'd love to tell you all about it right now...

But I can't.  It's part of this week's game.  Trivia time!





*This is going to be tough for some of you... so you are allowed to seek out a BLUE MONKEY to help you with the answer!  Are you wondering where on earth you will find a BLUE monkey?



          Coming, you guessed it, February 5th 2013.



 I can't wait!

With Tosca's book in one hand and my new RED CD in the other...
It will feel like the "Perfect Life"  ;)

If you are a RED fan then you know this is a new sound for them.  I for one am kind of digging it.  For those of you that have the privilege of knowing me (hahaahaa) you already know about my RED obsession.  For those that don't...

I came across this band one night, many years ago (2003).  I had taken my oldest son to see Seether, Three Days Grace, and Breaking Benjamin.  Skillet was listed to perform.  At that time I hadn't heard of Skillet.  When we got there and saw Skillet had been replaced by Red, I turned to several people in line and said, "Who's Red?"  No one around me knew.  I did the shoulders shrug realizing it didn't matter.  Seether, Three Days, and Breaking Benjamin were going to be awesome!

And they were.  They were all awesome... but one band stood out, really blew me away, and to me blew the other bands away.  RED.  The passion and intensity was tangible.  I'd never seen anything like them and I'd never heard anything like them either!

I went to the merchandise booth and bought their CD.  Mike Barnes, the lead singer was there and he signed my CD for me.  I told him how absolutely blown away I was.  He was my height, black eyeliner - rather smeared from the performance, shaved head, and quietly gracious.  I couldn't imagine how he got all that VOICE and screaming out with such a soft speaking voice.  He was very sincere with his thank you and I could tell he really was pleased I'd enjoyed the show.  Had he known I'd be an obsessive RED stalker after that he might not have been so gracious.  ;)

I've been to many shows since, each more epic than the last.  I've hung out with them, been on their guest list, sat on the bus with them during the acoustic experience.  It was all super cool for an old lady like me.  My oldest began playing guitar, idolizing Anthony and Randy.  The little fella took up with Joe and we had to buy drums and get lessons.  It's become a family obsession now.  We love our RED.  But the coolest moment ever was... 

Oh wait.  I can't tell you that.  It's also part of the trivia this week.  



*Hint- you might find some hints at my other blog.



*Hint: You can find it on Youtube, posted by officialred, June 30, 2011, and RedVevo, May 27, 2011


This is where it gets really fun, and a bit challenging.  

There are actually two things that go together here and I'm not going to tell you either of them.  I'm going to give you clues.  You have to figure it out on your own.  That is phase three of the little game I want to play this week.  So, that said here are your clues:

You're looking for two movies.
There are 5 films in the franchise so far.
One of my favorite actors stars in all but the third movie.
These are based on a remake of the original film from 1939.
The next film in the series will be released in May 2013.
The following film does not have a release date at this time.

TELL ME: the name of the film franchise, the names of the next two films, and the actor that has me squealing my tires as I race to the theater to see them!


*If you are a Blue Monkey be sure to follow these rules as well as the special monkey rules below!*




You must follow AND comment to be eligible!


Tell me in a comment below: What are you looking forward to in 2013?


DO NOT post the answers to the trivia in the comments below! 

Instead please send an email with the subject line "TRIVIA" to 

Answer all 5 questions correctly and be entered in a random drawing to win the following:

Grand prize-

A copy of Iscariot, by Tosca Lee
A copy of Red's Release The Panic CD
A Fandango Gift Card

Naturally, I cannot send you items that haven't been released yet.  So your prize will be mailed in February 2013... unless the Mayans are right. Bwhaahaa!  

BUT... I'm not going to make you wait that long to get a cool prize!!!

So, I've decided the grand prize winner will also receive a surprise gift this month, and one in January too!  And I'll even send two runners up a surprise gift as well!


I will also reward two random winners with a bonus surprise for posting the comment:

"TRIVIA TIME WITH DM!" and the link to this contest on your Facebook page!  Be sure to post a comment to my Facebook Page to let me know you're sharing for a bonus prize!  If you haven't liked the page on FB yet, please do so while you're there!

Hey, tis the season to be jolly and giving is better than receiving and all that jazz, right?

SPECIAL MONKEY RULES:  You can still play but you must send me ONE player who doesn't know me like you do! A monkey of another color is fine!

Have them follow the rules as stated above but also include your name and that you sent them in their comment and trivia answer email. 

The Facebook bonus prize is optional but if they play and comment to my wall tell them to let me know you sent them.

Well don't just sit there.  

 Go.  Seek answers!  

If the Mayans are right you don't have long to enter! 


Oh, in case the world doesn't end...
This contest does.

On December 21, 2012.  Midnight.

Come on, like you didn't see that coming.

I will post the winners on Saturday, December 22, 2012...

If we're still alive. ;)

*Disclaimer:  All end-world claims are for humorous effect. No, I don't really think the world is going to end.  No, I don't want you to panic and start stock-piling toilet paper.  No, I'm not suggesting we all freak out and run around with cardboard signs.  Yes, I want you to read, smile, and ponder the little things you're looking forward to in life.  Yes, I want you to enter to win some cool prizes. 

If Jesus does come back before I post the winners, well... that is a prize I cannot top.  ;)

"No one knows about that day or hour, not even the angels in heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father. Be on guard! Be alert! You do not know when that time will come." (NIV, Mark 13:32-33)

Thursday, November 29, 2012

Jingle Jingle Jingle... He's back!


It's that time of year again...

Every year, around this time, we put up our Christmas tree.

We don't decorate it right away, just put it up and plug it in.

Why don't we decorate it?

Well, we're waiting on someone else to do it for us of course!

Luckily, we do have someone that shows up the night our tree goes up!  

 He decorates it from top to bottom. 
Do you see him?
There under the tree...

His name is Jingle.

He is our Scout Elf.  Every year, if the kiddo has been good, he shows up to keep an eye on things and then report back to Santa about any naughty or Grinchy behavior.

Needless to say, it's not just the kiddo that has to make an effort to be good. *wink*

His bear pal is named Chilly.  My little one gave our scout elf this special friend to travel with him to and from the North Pole, so he wouldn't get lonely on the journey.

We were glad to see Chilly returned as well.
The two always have such fun together!

Jingle had many adventures last year. 
Some funny, some messy, some crazy, and some very sweet.

We can't wait to see what kind of fun and mischief they will get into this year!

So far we have woken up to a beautifully decorated tree and the sound of a train chugging along the tracks.  I admit it was a rather rude awakening, but hey, they sure seem to be having fun!

Are you wondering what all this has to do with writing?  Well, on the surface, not much.  But as I always say, "Dig deeper."  This whole Elf On The Shelf thing takes a lot of creativity!  It takes a lot of work to quietly create so much fun and mischief while the rest of the house is sleeping!  It's also a wonderful opportunity to inspire your children's creativity and encourage their imagination.  We always have a long talk about what Jingle was up to while we were sleeping.  My son comes up with some rather fabulous ideas, naturally, he gets that from me.

Last year, I had sense enough to jot down his wonderful stories in a "Jingle Journal".  We took pictures of all of our elf's crazy overnight adventures.  After he left us to go back to the North Pole, we put together a scrapbook with all of our stories and the pictures.  It helped ease the sadness of Jingle's departure and it was also a fun and stimulating activity.  It helped my little one understand "writing" books can be as much fun as reading them.

Jingle left my son a new friend, "Buddy" (seen in the picture above- he's the one with the ball cap) to keep him company while he was away.  For several nights after Jingle went home, I heard my son reading the scrapbook stories to his new friend and telling him all about the mischief our elf got into while here.

Our little scout elf further nurtured the love for reading and writing in my little boy's heart.  

His nightly adventures also kept me on my toes and kept the creative juices flowing!

Jingle is a new tradition that I only wish we'd found sooner!  I hope we get to continue it for many years to come.  Some day, perhaps Jingle will be reporting back to Santa on my grandchildren as well.  

In honor of the giving season...  I think I'll do another give-away!

Tell me about your favorite Family Christmas Tradition!  Leave a comment below and I'll choose one random winner on Saturday, Dec. 1st!

Up For Grabs:

I'm not going to tell you what's up for grabs.

PS:  If you want to follow Jingle's adventures this year
you will find that on my other blog:


I'll be posting a Jingle Update
every Friday, beginning tomorrow.

Monday, November 5, 2012

The Tower Of Temptation

I have this growing tower in my room.  I call it the Tower Of Temptation.
It whispers seductively, "Read me. Read me. Read me."

This is a strangely alarming situation. You see, I am not that sometimes reader who buys a book, pops it onto the bookshelf to read when I'm bored, and then walks away until a rainy day. I am the voracious reader who has been known to read an entire series cover to cover without stopping to sleep. I'm the woman who prefers books to shoes. I'm the girl that has ditched my friends at the mall to sneak off to the nearest book store. I'm the child reading by flashlight under my covers. I'm the one who watched Disney's "Beauty And The Beast" and didn't want the handsome prince, the love story, or the happily ever after...

 I wanted the fabulous library!


So, for me to have a stack-- an ever growing stack of unread books, is not only unusual it's down right unheard of. It began with a single book, then three, then five... and now it's taller than I am. And this is only the physical stack of books. I don't even want to talk about what's gathering dust deep inside my Kindle.

How did this happen?


I'm a writer. I write. I write every chance I get. If I have a five minute block of time with nothing to do, I'm writing. Lately, there has been more staring at the blank screen than actual writing. The sudden realization of why hit my like the sky falling.

Yes, I'm Chicken Little and the sky is a sage bit of advice I had forgotten in my determination to finish my book.

“If you don't have time to read, you don't have the time (or the tools) to write. Simple as that.”  -Stephen King

I am "stuck" in my writing because for many months now, I have not so much as picked up a good book! I have taken every spare moment to write and in doing so, I have lost my greatest available tool-- the written word. No one can paint a masterpiece without some inspiration! I cannot work without the proper tools! I have clearly forgotten the joy and more importantly the energizing inspiration that I draw from great books.

I will make the time to read. Simple as that.

Starting tonight I will choose a book from my Tower Of Temptation and it will be getting my undivided attention for at least one hour every night. I will still manage to get in my writing time. I've already put a bulls-eye on an unnecessary activity that I can sacrifice for my love of books. In fact, I'm not sure why I haven't done this sooner.

Oh, here's a little trivia:  As a child my favorite story was Chicken Little. My mother (who I completely credit with my love of reading) read that story to me tirelessly, without complaint, every single time I asked her to. I'm quite sure she wished the sky really would fall by the time I was five. To this day she shudders when I say Henny Penny.

Are you a reader? Are you a writer? Are you a reading writer? I'd like to know. Comment below and tell me your favorite book (as a child, or adult, or both) and let me know when you read and how you make time.

FOLLOW my blog and comment to win!

I'll choose a random winner on Friday (11/9) to win their very own copy of the last book I actually had time to sit down and read cover-to-cover before I got so distracted by my own writing.  Oh, and more trivia: you'll recognize a name (or maybe several) in the acknowledgments. ;)

Up for grabs:

(Thank you Mr. Liparulo!!!)

The 13th Tribe by Robert Liparulo

My review:

Immortal Vigilantes? What's not to love!
by D.M. Kilgore

5 out of 5
5 out of 5
Meets Expectations: 
5 out of 5
Robert Liparulo had me at "Immortal Vigilantes". What a concept! I had to read it, despite my usual tendency to avoid anything dealing with "experimental technology".

Liparulo starts setting the scene from page one with such descriptive precision that the mental images and subsequent cold chills keep you turning the pages... before you know it, you're hooked!

Blending Bible, History, Technology, and the Paranormal seamlessly, Liparulo gives you plenty to think about with his captivating story line and complex characters.

I loved the care that was taken to set up the world in which the story takes place, the attention to detail, the rich history, the pacing. It allowed me to immerse myself into the story. I didn't want to leave this inventive world, but I had to put the book down from time to time in order to catch my breath.

I especially enjoyed the fight scenes. They are intense and written with such exactitude that I felt the need to check myself for blood splatter!

Thrilling with exciting twists, interesting characters, skillful prose, and a solid story interwoven with a strong faith-filled message. This book definitely keeps you inspired and intrigued.

Hard to walk away from that last page and close this book without feeling exhausted and invigorated- all in one pleasurable mix.

Mr. Liparulo, consider my socks blown off.

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Writing Jitters: Slay the Beast, Unleash the Writer!

They happen to the best of us. 

Well, they happen to me at least.

One minute your are tapping the keys fast and furious style, talking to yourself about how awesome your writing is and how clever you are.

And the next...
You're staring at the screen.
Bleary eyed, jaw-dropped, thinking, "This is sh..tuff."

Call it what you will- performance anxiety, writer's block, creative constipation, but the writing jitters are real!  They are scary!  And they can be detrimental!

Tossing the pen down for a few hours is one thing, but not being able to pick it up again is something very different.  It happens.

But why?

Lack of confidence.  It is the enemy.

You must slay it!

But how?

Good question.

If I knew the answer I'd be working on my novel instead of whining about the jitters on my blog!  Okay, that's not helpful, is it?  Let's investigate it together, shall we?

Writing Jitters strike me most often when my work is going to be read by people I actually know.  Being the anonymous voice behind the blog is fine, you don't know every reader intimately, and somehow that makes it more comfortable.  Even if they don't like what they read and never come back again... it's okay.  You don't have to face them.  You're not likely to run into them at the Piggly Wiggly and wonder if they're whispering about your horrible writing to the cashier.  It's almost an out of sight out of mind relationship.

Knowing your neighbor, your circle of friends, and worse-- your mother (gasp!) are reading brings the blood pressure on up.  Suddenly, the bar has been raised.  Those same people that look at you suspiciously and ask, "Finished that book yet?" are now reading, weighing, and talking about your writing.  The horror. The horror.

The most nerve-wracking of all, for me personally, is when you have a circle of friends who are writers, not just the plain ol' everyday variety of writers, but really, really good writers, that are out there... reading  (heart rate rising), finding typos you missed (sweat beading on forehead), measuring your ability to be engaging, hook the reader, and spin a good tale (full-fledged panic attack to commence in 3...2...1...).

Truly horrifying.

I'm there.  Oh, I am soooo there.  This week, on Thursday to be exact, my very first contribution to the Blue Monkey Writers Blog will publish.  Go live.  For millions (hey it doesn't hurt to dream) to read.  Among the guaranteed readers?  My friends.  Fellow writers.  Really, really good writers.  The Blue Monkeys.

For those of you scratching your heads, (or other body parts I don't want to speculate on), the "Blue Monkeys" are a group of writers that were privileged and blessed to attend a writing conference like no other-- The Ragged Edge.  "RE" as we monkeys call it, was hosted by Ted Dekker (yes the Ted Dekker) and he brought his friends, the Tosca Lee, the Robert Liparulo, the Eric Wilson, and the Steven James.  Now, if these writer's (species: Genius) names don't ring a bell, you've been living under a rock and need to go straight to an internet search engine (or just to my "writers connection" page on my website) and get edu-ma-cated, like now!

But I digress...

The pressure of knowing that my tribe of Blue Monkeys will be reading has been immense.

Now, you might be thinking "Who cares?", or "What's the big deal?", or "Did I pay my water bill this month?" (let's hope it's not the last one, if so, I am more full of sh...tuff than I realized).

Well, there is a point to this rambling bit of wisdom.

How will I ever hand over my finished manuscript to be evaluated, dissected, and likely rejected numerous times by the powers that be... when I can't turn in a single blog post to a group of friends without having a panic-attack?

Clearly, I must work on my self confidence.

I have to know in my heart that I am a writer.  A good writer.  I'm not going to be able to please everyone.  Not everyone is going to love what I've written.  And, I have to be okay with that.  If I can't learn how to do that... then I am doomed.  Rejection letters will come.  I cannot melt down and quit after the first one.

Think of the greatest writer you know, the best book you've ever read.

Now go Google it.  Look and see how many times the writer received a rejection letter.

I'll give you an example: Gone With The Wind.  A best-seller, that has sold over 30 million copies.

Margaret Mitchell received 38 rejection letters.  That's right, 38 publishers rejected Gone With The Wind.  You know, she wrote back, "Frankly..."  Okay, probably not.  But the point is, she likely said to herself, "Frankly, I don't give a damn!" and kept submitting her work.  Why? Because she knew it was good.  She believed it was best-seller good.

We all have to believe in ourselves that much. This is good.  This is best-seller good.

Delusional? Perhaps, but it wouldn't be the only delusion writers suffer from.  A much worse and more harmful delusion is, "This is sh...tuff".

So, what kind of writer are you?  Are you the delusional best-seller?  Or the delusional quitter?

Wait, am I actually encouraging you to be delusional?  Why yes, yes I am.

Have you ever heard of self-fulfilling prophecy?

If you think lack of confidence is dangerous, just wait!

If you keep saying something long enough, you will begin to believe it.  If you tell yourself every day, "I really suck at writing.  I better not quit my day job."  Guess what?  You are eventually going to suck at writing and be stuck with that day job.  I hope you like it.

Tell yourself, every day, multiple times a day, "I am a writer.  I am a great writer."

Now, believe it!


I'm off to work on that.  You should too, but before you go...

Tell me:

What causes your writing jitters? 
What do you find to be your most stress-inducing reader group? 
How do you handle your jitters?

1.  Comment below, and I'll pick a random winner on Tuesday, October 30. 
2.  Come back again, and comment after reading my first post on the Blue Monkey Writers Blog on Thursday the 25th, and tell me what you thought of it, and receive an extra entry for the random drawing.

 © 2011-2012 DM Kilgore
All right reserved

Up for grabs:

By New York Times' best-selling author and international speaker Cecil Murphey: The "must-have" resource for every writer. Who You Are Determines What You Write. You have unique stories to tell the world, teachings and words that will inspire and encourage others. So what are you waiting for? It's time to unleash that writer within. This isn't your average writing book, with guilt-inducing lists of "how-to's" in your search to become a writer...or a better writer. Instead, internationally renowned and beloved writer Cecil Murphey walks as a companion alongside as you: *Discover who you are. *Develop your voice and writing style. *Learn to write with heart. *Become authentic to your readers. *Grapple with the dreaded "Writer's Block" (it's not the deadly monster it seems). *Harness the inner critic (and a few outer ones too). *Expand your comfort zone. "We need to continue improving our writing skills, but in the process, we can't forget who we are. If we do, our voices become lifeless. The words may sound beautiful, but they won't express our true selves."-Cec Murphey. New York Times' best-selling author and international speaker Cecil (Cec) Murphey has written or co-written more than 120 books, including the runaway bestseller 90 Minutes in Heaven (with Don Piper) and Gifted Hands: The Ben Carson Story (with Dr. Ben Carson). His books have sold millions of copies, been translated into more than 40 languages, and brought hope and encouragement to countless people around the world.

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

No Impossibilities...

One of my (many) favorite quotes:  "In dreams and in love there are no impossibilities." ~Janos Arany  

I am a being filled with big dreams, created in me by my Father in heaven who has great plans for me.  I am overflowing with an abundance of love, given to me unconditionally, and all that is asked of me in return,  is that I love others as He has loved me. 

I'm pretty good at returning unconditional love to those that love unconditionally (dogs, for instance) and not so good at giving it to those who seem incapable of any kind of love-- especially that of the unconditional variety.  It's not easy to love those who seem unable to love others.  So, I pray:  Lord, help me to always remember, that it is those who are unable to  love, that need it most of all.  In my heart I know that if they cannot love others, it is because they cannot love themselves.  They are damaged, as I was damaged, and they can be made whole, as I was made whole.  Help me learn to love enough to pray for them, that they may seek You, so that You may make them whole, and they may learn to love themselves enough to love others. 

For in the end, I know... it is in my ability to love the unlovable that my heart shall be measured, not in my ability to love those who are so easy to love.  No matter how faithful I am, or how good my works might be, without love, I am nothing.  (1 Corinthians 13:2)  I once believed the meaning of that verse was that if I didn't "have" love, as in if it wasn't "given TO me", that I would be nothing.  But through God's amazing grace, where I was once blind, now I can clearly see... it means that if I have not LOVE to GIVE... I am nothing.

Stop and think, for just a moment, what if we woke up tomorrow in a world where every person committed, even if only for one day-- a mere 24 hours, to love everyone unconditionally.  Can you imagine it?

Ah, neither can I.  It seems... impossible, doesn't it?

No matter how hard it might seem to give love where we feel it is not deserved, we can.  
Where there is love... nothing is impossible... and where there is God... there is love.  

He is in my heart.  Is He in yours? 

You can love.  Unconditionally.

It won't be easy, but it's not impossible. 

After all...

With God you can do all things.

Your mission, should you choose to accept it:

Go into the world this day, with love, and make a difference.
Be the light that shines into the darkness.
Do good deeds, and do them in love.

Are you up for the challenge?  

Complete the mission!  Then come back and let me know:  

Did you make a difference?  Did you let your light shine?  What good deeds did you do in love?  

Comment below, and I'll choose a random winner on Friday.  

Up for grabs:  A little something to shed light in the darkness. ;)

Winner's choice of a Thomas Kinkade nightlight (11 styles available).

While my novels might be a bit dark, maybe even scary, I'm all about shining a light in the darkness. ;)


© 2011-2012 DM Kilgore
All right reserved